Me on my sophomore year
Today was my last day of being a sophomore. I can’t help but feel a bit sentimental about it. The reason? Honestly, I don’t know. A lot has happened over the past year and it’s crazy to think that it was all cramped together in one year.
Let’s see, I had my first hospital duty this year. I still remember how nervous I felt. The first time I had that patient’s records in my hands. It’s funny how I started out as really nervous and really shaky- now, it feels kind of natural. Like somehow, I know deep down that I was born to do this. Cheesy- I know but it’s true. But before that, I had my capping and pinning which was on the same date as my birthday, mahah!
I also learned Mandarin this year. Well, I tried. Honestly, I did. My brain didn’t absorb that much though. I also had swimming for PE this year. Like Mandarin, I didn’t learn much either. Mahah! Well, maybe I did but I must have forgotten all about it by now.
The class has been morphed into one so everyone’s all close now. Inside the classroom, it feels like a family. There are times though, times where we get into fights, misunderstandings, stand-offs even broken friendships. Through all those- we somehow managed to patch things up and laugh about it. It’s not about who was right, it was about lowering one’s pride and try to save the friendship that was there.
And because the class morphed into one- I found myself a special someone. He was- huh. When I think about it, I can’t even begin to describe him. He was corny, geeky, a show-off and to top it all off- he was a gym-obsessed meanie! But he was also smart, protective, sweet, funny… We started off as friends though. And I thought he’d stay a dream but well, he didn’t. To cut it short, I was happy but there are just some factors in life that will just get in the way. We were happy, but in the end we had to choose. We set out in different directions and kept our distances so that we can let each other move on. We remained friends until this day. Yeah, it’s awkward and I’ll admit that it still hurts but I figured that maybe it’s just better if we stayed as friends anyway.
After that, I realized that I became closer to my family and to my friends. I’ve been more open to them than before. It was like after a storm- all I had to do was find my way back home. It felt nice though, that after everything they were there no matter what. Triad and Lee-Vough have been distracting me with antics, weird conversations, weird anything, random anything… They have been just plain amazing. They were there when tears were falling, comforted me, smacked my head and made me laugh when I thought I couldn’t. Now, my family- now these guys have seen me cry from time to time but I saw the hurt in my parents’ eyes whenever I did. They’ll give me some advice with the line: “I’ve been there. It’ll pass don’t worry” And they were right. They were all right.
A lot more happened this year, these are the highlights I guess. So I have been in a whirlwind of experiences, emotions, trials… but here I am still standing after all the things that life threw my way. You can say that I’m stronger, wiser and a tad tougher compared to previous years. This coming June, I’ll be attending my junior year in the same school. It’ll be harder but I think I can handle it…
so bring it on.
